“Love Redesigned” By Quita Feeley

Love is a chance we take, a gift with no guarantees.
It requires a bit of vulnerability and a lot of trust.
Love often comes easily, freely given when we are young, innocent and unscathed by life.
Yet for those who’ve ever lost in love, it comes at a greater price.
When the hammer of betrayal has smashed your heart, your confidence,
your very perception of who you are into a million tiny pieces …
it takes time to even find the shattered, fragmented remains.
Like anything delicate that’s broken, some slivers may just never quite fit back the same.
Little tiny gaps, sometimes too small to detect, can only be repaired by God’s loving hand.
Love is so simple, yet with hurt and disappointment, it turns into something extremely disconcerting
Love is an emotion capable of providing comfort and security, yet on the other hand causes heartache.
To be loved is a gift, to be cherished— a bonus.
I’m here to tell you that Love is WORTH the risk.
It’s what brings color to life. At some point, you need to be brave.
Love is more about the present than the past; it’s the future that awaits you
It’s security that will encompass you, the warmth that will overtake, easing your heart’s burden.
Love brings a smile, making the heart sing a song not heard by human ears,
brightening the path ahead, welcoming with warm embraces and tender kisses.
Love fills an empty heart once hollow and dark, renewing hope, easing fear gently, without force,
bringing its own joyful new plans.
Love is worth waiting for, priceless when freely bestowed.
No matter the twist and turns of life, the times of giving up, of complications and disappointments,
….love still remains a treasure to be sought after, a dream to dream.
Eventually, you will realize that doubt has ceased–no more second guessing , no more waiting for the reversal. Instead, slowly in the quiet of your heart, in a way only time can provide….there once again appears a belief in true love. Slowly love’s light shines through all of the apprehension.
First a shimmer, a glimmer, then bold strong rays that warm, that heal.
Someday, the pain that love has brought will be washed away by your tears replaced by a rainbow promise of a love you deserve….and once again you will love and be loved.
You will once more believe in true love and embrace it.
Love will finally belong to you.

A January From the Past

At least once very January (usually more) I stop and think about a January way back ……1990 in fact.

I was in the middle of being divorced in a very small town. The cold of that January was a reflexion of my life at the time especially my spirit which was broken. I needed to look for work to support myself and my precious two sons who were 5 and 2 at the time.
I was a young woman ( had just turned 26) but in my heart and mind I was old . I was broken, afraid of change, deflated of all self worth and confidence (divorce will do that).

I needed employment and since I married on my 19th birthday I had no career to fall back on. I had always stayed home with my boys and the thought of getting a job terrified me on a lot of levels.

Not a lot of options in a small town and no experience so after stopping at several places I ended up in front of the sonic drive in…..not the bank or grocery store like I had pictured but they did give me a job and wanted me to get started that night.
I left with a red polo shirt that I was instructed to wear with khaki pants, and it was then that I became what I thought was the OLDEST car Hop EVER. Haha
Of course back then no one over 16 car hopped.

That cold January I started working and freezing  but earning lots of tips (if you don’t tip at sonic ….start!! 😀 )
My first night I cried as I picked up trash in the lot after closing I felt like I couldn’t keep working there and face all the people who would eventually come there to eat (I knew the whole town practically). I dreaded the stares of pity and curiosity. I wanted to be anything but seen,  I had no choice, I had to work and so I did.
It was not the job I wanted but little did I know it was the one I needed.

I had no idea that would be the worst and best year of my life, because in that January I felt nothing would ever be ok in my life again. The next January my life would be completely different, I just didn’t know.

We sometimes only see the moment but in Gods plans is the “big picture” the plan B when plan A fails…..his plans for us are always for good. If it’s a cold January emotionally for you remember to Hold on and your next January can be completely different 🙂

Jeremiah 29:11
I’ll show up and take care of you as I promised and bring you back home. I know what I’m doing. I have it all planned out—plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.